2am Thoughts Typed on My Phone

We are a collection of human experiences with an identity, which gives us security. These experiences are neither good nor bad, they just are. Our identity wants and needs to label these experiences and those of others. We find likeminded bodies to help us support our current belief system and place a label or judgement on those outside our safety net of beliefs.

We are here to learn and grow – to bring our collection of experiences back to our real home (the existence after this life) and share those with everyone else. It is our “job” to honor our SELF – to Seek Evolution through Life Fulfillments/Forgiveness. There is value in each interaction regardless of how it plays out.

I used to believe it was “bad” to ask questions which might lead to a different truth than that which we have been living. For example, my kiddos Dad would often say to me during our separation/divorce process, “You believe what you want to fit your lifestyle at the present time and to justify stepping away from one faith to another…” –And I can’t say I didn’t think he was right in some ways. BUT THEN, it hit me and I said, “So What?! and Yup!” and I felt GREAT!

Once we start to question all we hear, have been told, or just always have believed, the universe will not deny us the growth we seek. After all the conditions surrounding our push for growth was in part due to events out of my control at first. Therefore, be prepared to be pushed to a new place that might feel very different, confusing, strange, uncomfortable, or even scary. This is FEAR showing up, but not a bad version of FEAR…it’s one we can embrace and show gratitude for as it helps us to be better in the end. When we can let go of what is no longer serving us, we make room for what can! This is not to deny our past, place blame, or play the victim because our past was exactly what, where, and with whom we needed to be also. Lets utilize FEAR not from a place of Focusing Energy on Alternate Realities, but one of Focusing Energy on Actual Reality.

As we seek out answers that bring peace to our hearts and minds, even if those new discoveries go against so many of those in our current circles, our soul is pleading for us to be courageous and stand in that truth. The energy around each and everyone of us is buzzing with gratitude when we shed the identity we hold so tightly. We are so much more than a body with emotions that life happens to by chance. When we can see our SELF (and others SELF) as a spiritual energetic being, Seeking Evolution through various stages of Life Fulfillments and more importantly through Forgiveness, then we live a rich and full life.

All our experiences give back to the collective consciousness. There is no need to be envious of others talents or life because one day, you will experience all they were able to experience, and they too will be able to do the same with you. I am you and you are me. Perhaps that is hard to grasp right now (although empathy gets us pretty close), and I might be wrong, but what a fun way to go through life. I can honor my talents and gifts and allow others to do the same without judgement, jealousy, fear, or hesitation because ultimately it’s just denying oneself.

When we stand in our truth, we step into flow.¬† I cannot deny the millions of perfectly timed human experiences that ultimately have brought me to this exact moment. Some call it coincidence, I call it synchronicity or the universe giving me signs that I am exactly where I am suppose to be. My inner captain or intuition is strong and getting stronger as I listen and do. This is a repeated process over and over again; listen and do what she says, as this is her workout. My intuition is the sunlight to each new day. Don’t give the inner critic time to smash the voice of your inner wisdom.

Many times in my life, I have been in deep flow, where everything just miraculously works out and I hardly had to even ask! However, after my separation, it was all I could do to just find the flow in the daily tasks, much less my career, life choices, relationships, etc. I kept hearing, just take care of yourself. I could not find a handbook on how to do this and that was super frustrating. My inner critic was winning and I saw myself as losing this game of life. Little did I know, that whole experience was setting me up for all this ūüôā I was not going to move on my own, so the universe gave me a big nudge in the way of a personal life crisis and a work crisis all in one summer.

Over the course of the last two years, I have been drawn towards the idea of finding flow as I had once experienced it so effortlessly – I took it for granted. I want flow in my life and I want more than anything to help others find that flow. If 51% of this worlds population was in flow, we would still have human life problems, but we would have the tools to get through them with a bit of grace, dignity and more importantly support!

I have learned to notice those who are now or have been in flow with their own life purpose. Once in flow, we can let go of the tightly gripped wheel and simply ask from our hearts desires. Our deepest desires, when moving towards them will feel like we are on the right path and events will unfold in ways you could never have planned. These desires are part of our DNA and will serve our life’s mission. We do not need to worry about the material things in this life because as we follow our flow, our desires (and if material things are one of yours) will naturally be a bi-product of you following your heart. ¬†I have experienced this over and over again in my life. I can see flow clearly now and I strive to maintain it, while helping others with their “ColorFlow Life”. Through my strengths, I have the ability to help others find their flow, and in turn honor their life purpose. Helping others in this way is what fills my cup with gratitude, happiness and LOVE! So, thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope you find value here.

Each day I live open to my life purpose and the purpose of every scrap of energy around me. I do my best to not worry about how I am going to get from here to there (or what is even out there), because ultimately there is no there. It’s just a here, right now, and living each day this way is freeing and manageable. Being is simply doing with purpose and in being true to myself, I am living a wholehearted existence.

Life is a rather simple game. ¬†Can you live open to an idea that came to me? ¬†What if, we are here to learn, to love everybody and everything in a greater capacity, with each day we are given? That’s it – Just LOVE! Be open to other people’s beliefs, choices, experiences, ¬†thoughts, hearts, etc. we don’t need to agree, but when we can be open, lean into understanding, to empathy, and most importantly can find value in all things, especially the moments that move 180 degrees in the opposite direction of our comfort zone – that is LOVE.

We ALL have value. We all have a unique skill-set couched in our own personal collection of human experiences. There is nobody now, or ever who will have our exact collection of DNA, life experiences, talents and gifts, and make the same choices. Much like a finger print, we are all unique. As we continue to do what makes our hearts sing, we give permission for others to do the same. We show them it’s possible to have a purpose driven life that nourishes our souls. We are not here by accident. This life is not a coincidence. Each and every interaction has meaning and purpose.

I see and now look for the synchronicities in my life. The web states, “Synchronicity (German: Synchronizit√§t) is a concept, first introduced by analytical psychologist Carl Jung, which holds that events are “meaningful coincidences” if they occur with no causal relationship yet seem to be meaningfully related.”

When I let go of how things need to happen and like Dorothy on the yellow brick road, I follow my path with an open heart and an open mind at all times. I have no clue what characters will pop up to help along the way, or popup, and/or try to hold me back – either way, it doesn’t matter because I know I will find value in it. I know that I create my own reality. True, everything I “know” might be “wrong” and a new truth could show up to compliment and shift my direction at any moment. Call me a flip-flopper, if you like, but we don’t know what we don’t know until we know it. Therefore, how can we really make a sound choice when we do not have all the cards? We do the best we can, with what we know at the time the choice is made. I choose to believe we are all doing our best.

It’s my “job” to be me so that the universe can help me be in my flow and trust the current of water under me to keep me moving towards evolution. We must not let FEAR keep us out of the river, stuck on shore, dreaming of what might happen if we get back in. We should not get in the river and paddle upstream, thus fighting the way our life wants to unfold. When we Focus Energy on Alternate Realities it keeps us frozen, unable to move with the current towards our pure joy and fulfillment. If we can see FEAR for what it is, acknowledged it and if need be, play out the FEAR in our minds eye until it disseminates, so be it. However, don’t get stuck on the shore or struggle too long going in the opposite direction of the water. This keeps us in the alternate realities, and they do not exist.

Ask yourself if you had all the money you ever needed or wanted, where do you live? What are you doing? Who is with you? Now, go and do it! AND, if you find yourself stuck along the way, feel free to reach out. By asking for inspirational ideas from me, others, or the universe, you honor all our gifts. Specifically for me, ¬†I enjoy being an “idea generator” of possible solutions to your “I can’t _______”. ¬†I can help ignite ¬†your flow by generating positive ideas of why you can, how you can, and why you need to! I cannot do the work for you, but if you are in alignment, flow will come over you when FEAR is broken down, you step into LOVE and allow SELF to do what it came here to do!


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